depression

today's mid term test was traumatising
i had some sorta mental block
couldn't remember anything, even though i read through my notes like 5 times
and the one that i paid extra attention i couldn't remember too
i think i've become mentally retarded or something
which totally shows that 'A' level grades are not a good indicator of one's competence in surviving uni
omo somemore it's like the most important course, and they're not offering it next sem, and if i fail i'd have to wait for the next acad yr to continue my studies
omg i can so totally see the 10% flying away
fuck
like how to answer "what does the 'definition of the situation' refer to ?"
or it's an easy question and i'm just dumb
it's not even in anything i read pls

urgh

when i passed up the paper i totally wanted to run away

ji sian one

LOL and this was the photo the lecturer pulled out
the fake smile